16 December 2009

Public Announcement

I am coming out tonight. I am making my secret yearning public. A yearning that's been burning in my bones for years now.
A few years back I won a poetry prize from the University of Haifa for some poems I'd written. The following day I decided I'm going to write a book. I took a year off my Master's studies and spent the whole year writing. But then life caught up with me - I went back to my studies and between raising a daughter, studying, and working I all but abandoned my dream.
My manuscript has been lying on the shelf for a number of years now. Every few months I go back to it, and with difficult emotions, I reread some parts. Sometimes I even take up a pencil and do some editing.
I have accepted the fact that the work is very virgin. Most of it needs to be reworked.
Today I feel I have matured as a writer, and I am ready to embark on the journey of writing a novel. A few nights ago, I opened a blank word document and spent a couple of hours writing. I turned off the computer at around 4:30 am [I suffer from insomnia, and anyway my creative writing is best at these small hours of the night], having written almost two pages.
The following day I reread these two pages - and I felt that this is it. It's a good start, and I even had a female character popping up all on her own.
I've been walking around with a small notebook in my bag, frantically writing some notes to elaborate on later on. I feel that this time, the novel has got a strong hold of me. It is struggling to breathe on its own, not letting me have too much control.

So I think these are all signs that the time has come. The time has come for me to make a real commitment.
I promise myself not to let go this time. I promise myself to write something - anything - each and every night.
Hopefully I will have some parts to share with you soon - that is, if you are interested.
This is my promise to myself. This is my promise to the story that is struggling to be read.


  1. Yay! I'm proud of you and inspired by you. Can't wait to hear how it's going.

  2. I like your writings and I'm waiting for it!

  3. Wonderful news! I hope I will get to read it one day. :)

  4. Bless your thoughts. Follow the signs and if you seem to falter write to me. I shall sustain you.

    A born is conceived. Waiting for the birth.

    Courage and passion,

  5. excellent! i'm so happy for you. write! write! write!

  6. thank you all so much for the encouragement!
    In the small hours of the night, your words give me the strength I need to keep writing.

  7. I encourage you to write, always, Khulud. It's the best thing you can do for yourself in every way. Writing is a purgative - the best that I know. Trudge on, girl!



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